No Where Else Will Do

I woke up knowing that my thoughts can make or break me today. I know that if I think thoughts that lead me to an idea that this surgery will result in finding out I have cancer, I will make myself sick. I choose to think that everything will be “fine” and my responsibility in all this is to stay positive.

My thoughts are pulled into my past and all that brought me here. My regrets are turning into the strength of who I am because of them. The God of my understanding is a healing God full of love and patience. As the darkness tries to crawl into my soul, my Creator brings me love to make all new with light, love and healing. The awareness of this moment swirls around me with the air that blends the spirit behind my thoughts. I try to take all doubts and turn them into the knowledge of how my thoughts make my reality. The healing begins inside my thoughts and I want to be the one to say my faith in my God healed me and I will not have sickness any more.

I remind myself that if I ask, I will receive what lies behind my intensions. I know my intensions are to allow the God of my understanding into my life and “Thy will be done”. I am empty without God and I never want to feel that experience again. I am here with my past that blends into who I am and I look towards my future with anticipation of what my God is leading me towards.

I reach out at every moment to serve my God in whatever way I can show my faithfulness. There is no room in my thoughts for anything else and my belief in this takes the spirit and intertwines it with my soul for the feeling that spreads throughout my body. I am nothing without Something Greater and I seek every waking moment to find something that reflects the language my Creator speaks to me in a way that I can understand.

Life feels like a riddle some days and today had many riddles to study on my search for answers. At the end of the day, I looked at my actions and knew that I gave my best in all affairs I was blessed to be a part of. I am right where Something Greater wants me to be and nowhere else will do.

“The spirit of love will bring you one type of feeling and thought while the spirit of fear will bring you another.  You will go back and forth with thoughts and feelings trying to decide who you are and you will find that you are right where you are and nothing more.”--  Right Where You Are by Lisa Hynes