To Create

As our awareness expands, we will seek for understanding of what lies behind the sun and the moon.  Where does our existence come from?  With no time and no space that holds the Source of All Creation what does that mean to us?  Where do we fit in with something that holds the power behind the creation of the water and the wind?  If we are made in the image of our creator, why are we here if creation is not even in our time?  If we are from the Source of All Creation then what does that mean about us?  We are here to further creation and with each time we allow fear to prevent us from creating, we lose a piece of our connection with Something Greater.  Some of us take this thought one step further and look at it as if each time we give up the piece that connects us to Something Greater a piece of us dies as we separate inside of our mind.  The longer we keep negative thoughts in our mind, the larger this separation becomes.  The negative parts within our thoughts are like the parts of us that have died and need cleaned out to make room for something new.  The parts we want to keep that are from our past will then blend with the new.  We will then make choices as to what we want to create on a conscious level as we take control of what we want in our mind.  As we make the decision to release any thoughts that are negative, we gain knowledge from Something Greater.  We have a purpose with our connection to Something Greater and if we do not use it, we will become the dying as we lose the nourishment that keeps us alive from the inside out. Many of us have stopped creating.  Many of us do not even know that we have allowed the demonic forces to enter our thoughts as we go about our day.  Some of us are asleep as we walk through our life with only thoughts of what we are suppose to do next.  We have been given freewill to allow the creation of anything we so chose to come through as the vessel for the spirit world.  Even when we do not think we are part of anything, that is the choice as we sit inside of our mind.  We have the opportunity to create our heaven while in these bodies. As we seek for this reality, it begins by looking into our world from a different perspective.  We are made in the image of our creator who also made our universe.  The times we forget the significance of this knowledge are the times to look towards the sky and remind our self that the power behind all creation brought us to this moment.  There is a separation that is happening inside of our thoughts and the illusion that we are alone results in the disconnection from Something Greater that will ultimately lead us into a hell that has been written about all through history.  So, as we separate the thoughts in our mind, what do you choose?  To create for your heaven on earth or to slowly cause your life force to disintegrate right before your eyes?

Changing Our Thinking

We will know which voice is speaking to us inside our head by the feelings we get when we hear them.  Does your stomach turn when you think about certain things?  Your emotions tell all.  Your thoughts become a product of these emotions.  Some of us turn our mind into nothing but fear because we never dealt with the emotion of fear in our past.  Right between our emotions that form our thoughts lies an opening where we stop for the power that gives us the strength for these thoughts.  This opening is where the voice of love or the voice of fear lies.  This is where we can start to change our thoughts.  We think certain thoughts based upon the feeling that merges with either love or fear.  When we focus on certain emotions and thoughts, we make choices as to which action will be taken as a result.  As we begin to ask “Why do I feel this way?” we become more aware of how groups of thoughts and emotions work.  We will be able to re-direct what we ultimately decide to bring forth into the action behind this mixture of thought, the force that holds love or fear and the emotion.  Do we really want to think about someone who may of hurt us in the past and bring forth all the thoughts and feelings that they bring into our mind? We can turn a good day into a bad day within an instant with what we think about.  Our reality is where we are in our mind.  We choose to take action based upon our interpretation of what we feel and what we think at any given time.  Many of us are asleep and have not activated the conscious presence of the force that is love based.  Fear based thoughts are much more easily accessible within our mind.  Love brings forth angelic forces.  Fear brings forth demonic forces.  For those of us who seek, we will open a flood gate of knowledge about our self and the world around us depending upon which force we allow into our mind.  If we seek for love, we will find the excitement that comes into play as we see the response in the world we encounter at any given time.  When we are consciously aware of why we are responding to a specific thought the way we are, we can then implement the force inside of us that brings forth change if needed.  As we identify the difference between our thoughts, we can then begin to make choices and take control of what thoughts we want to have within our mind. Question your thoughts as they enter and take control of how your day is going to turn out for you. Change your thoughts and you will change your life.

The Middle Ground

So if we are living in the middle ground and we can channel spirits from levels below us or above us, what does this mean exactly?  If there are laws in place what are they?  What is it we hope to accomplish during the little bit of time we are in these bodies? Even with our own spark of life inside, we are only conscious of a small part that gets us out of bed or off the couch.  We can welcome as many thoughts as we want but we will only be thinking consciously of one specific thought at any given time.  As thoughts are generated from what we feel, the complications arise.  We are inspired or chastised in our thoughts and emotions at any given time.  Our freewill gives us the opportunity to listen to either voice.  As we make decisions, we allow this negative or positive force to enter.  We then take our thoughts to a different level as we allow more and more of this force inside of us. We can become angry at the drop of a hat.  We can become sad for no reason at all.  We will pick up on these type of frequencies rather quickly.  We can choose to remain on a specific frequency for several life times until we become the murders or the suicides.  Even if we can justify in our mind how we intentionally hurt another in any way, we are giving up pieces of the angelic force that inspires us.  With each time we lose that connection, we obtain a stronger mixture of the negative force.  Even when we die, we take this force with us.  It is the spark of life inside that is like the fire burning from a candle.  The fire goes where ever the candle goes just as our spark of life that carries our consciousness.  Remember, energy cannot be destroyed as it only changes form.  As we connect with specific levels of consciousness, we create that reality.  We can heal from a specific level of consciousness.  We can take several different frequencies and combine them to make our own special mixture.  Some of us do this now and do not realize that when we mix passion with either love or jealousy the outcome will be different for each.  As we consciously learn which mixture produces specific outcomes, we then began to have freewill as we decide which one we want to experience.  We may play out the need to love with heartache for many life times until we consciously realize what the patterns are.  When we begin to make a conscious decision of the choices in our life as we gain knowledge that we will have specific outcomes because of these choices is when we will either become more enlightened or we will spiral down into the levels of existence that some call the fallen angels.  Because we are on the middle ground, we have the option to go either way.  Some of us are dangling from a thread and know there has to be a change as we look towards anything to help us get through the day.  As we go back and forth in our mind, we are not capable of understanding what is happening behind the scenes.  It is time to learn how to take control of what this unseen world is doing so we can go to the next level of awareness.  First, we must realize that we are in a position of power over these spirits unless we break the universal laws that are in place for the protection of all.  The universal law that we get back the type of energy we give to others will always play out in what some call karma.  No one escapes these laws.  There is perfect order in this process and we all will learn these laws through the voice of love or the voice of fear. Our inspirations will be on one side cheering us on while we will hear the calling from the underworld telling us that we are not worthy.  As we take control and abide by these universal laws with good intentions, the middle ground becomes the pathway into the angelic forces that have to help us when ask.  For those of us striving to connect with the God of our understanding, we must reach for everything that surrounds us to help in this task.  A large number of us do not share any thoughts at all and do not ask for assistance as a result.  The universal law that if we ask we will receive must be viewed when seeking for the God of our understanding.  Some of us will choose to sit in our misery until the day we do not have any connection with this Source of All Creation.  It is our choice as we sit in this middle ground.  We will be here until we either gain control over our consciousness for enlightenment or we seep into the underground where the demonic forces emerge into our reality.

 

Angels and Demons

This is the story of how I built a bridge within my mind that helped me walk out of hell and find a heaven right in front of me.  The day I could not function the way I was in my life became the day I surrendered.  I had nothing else.  As I walked through my days and listened to the promises that a God of my understanding talked about in the Bible and in the Twelve Step Program, my life began to change.  I had no hope for the longest time and would look at the foot in front of me to get through my days in the beginning.  When I accepted that this is right where I am suppose to be in my life, I began to wonder “Why”?  All the resentments of where I had been and all the misery of who I was would not let me rest for even a moment.  I would go days without sleep and still wasn’t’ sure if I just wanted to live or die. As I began to reflect back on who I was and where that left me for today, I began to seek for the promises that so many people around me talked about.  Then the day came when the prayer I created to try and find this thing called hope appeared in a painting.  I was on my hands and knees reading my prayer in a painting that I thought I had made up in my mind when I realized nothing was at all what I thought.  I slept in a twilight state that night and woke to a presence that covered the air.  As I walked my dog the next morning, it felt like someone was watching me.  A voice that was above me walked with me and told me to begin writing as much as possible.  I knew that things felt different in my mind and I had to do something with all these thoughts.  So I started writing and equations of thoughts and emotions began to spill onto the paper.  I even broke down emotions and thoughts into steps and defined them.  I was working the Twelve Step Program at the time and was analyzing my entire life.  As I wrote every day, a flood gate opened up and I wrote about things I did not understand.  I would study what I wrote and compared the words to other’s viewpoints. 

As I worked the Twelve Step Program, I gradually saw all the promises of this program come into my life. The courage and the strength lit a fire inside of me to share this knowledge with others.  As I wrote, worked the Twelve Steps and studied the world around me, I realized that I am a piece of something else that I may not be able to see or understand, but I know it is there watching and guiding me all the time.  Now as I progressed with these type of thoughts, I began to hear about the angels and demons that are noted in the Bible. I began to realize that something that I didn’t understand was in my thoughts.  I could write things and not know what I was writing all day.  If I stopped writing and went back to it later, I could pick up right where I left off with and finish writing the information that poured out of my mind.  The words I wrote baffled me.  I had a Catechist instructor and an author who wrote several books on the Bible look at my writings.  They told me that my writings were found in the Bible. Why was I writing about things in the Bible?  How was I doing this as I did not know anything about the Bible?

I could not figure out how angels and demons fit into the equation for the longest time.  As I prayed and studied, one day I wrote “The Battle” and my perspective of what and where our thoughts come from changed forever more.  As I learned about a war that is talked about in the Bible between God and Satan, I began to study the book of Enoch and other writings with references of what these fallen angels are and why they will never be able to return to what some of us call heaven.  It took me several months to put it into my mind that there are entities that enter our thoughts and can control us based upon what level of awareness we hold inside.  I was one of those people that allowed my thoughts to control me for many years.  As I became more aware of what was going on in my mind, I realized that there is a battle right inside of my thoughts.  Even on the days I was capable of feeling good about myself, thoughts would seep in to remind me of all the things I have done wrong in my life and I would spiral down into the feeling of worthlessness within seconds of these thoughts entering my mind. As I began to separate these thoughts and as I learned about angels, I began to see that if I asked for help from the God of my understanding, I could maintain positive thoughts for longer periods of time.  Then the day came when I was capable of maintaining a feeling of love all day as I worked the steps in the Twelve Steps.  As I wrote every day, knowledge started to pour into my mind of what love is and what fear is and how angels inspire and how demons destroy.  As I began to appreciate how powerful our thoughts are, I began to gain the knowledge that if I am full of fear, negative thoughts emerge into my mind.

I counsel people who have attempted suicide, who have addictions, who are dying and who just feel they have no purpose in this life.  As I complied all my experiences with patients and in my personal life, I realized that there is something at work on our planet that a lot of us are not aware of and we have allowed our thoughts to control us.  As I defined love and fear based thoughts, I began to place the angels and demons into the equation.  Many suicide attempts that I have counseled over the years have told me that they did not want to hurt their self and that the thought “just came to me”. 

As I started gaining control over my thoughts, my life began to change.  I began to gain the knowledge of why everything in my life unfolded the way it did and why I experience such turmoil in my mind.  All the promises from the Twelve Step Program were coming true for me.  I began to release the resentments and began to understand that the experiences that resulted in those resentments were to help bring me to another level of awareness.  It all is relevant and has a purpose for my growth.  As I released the negative thoughts, knowledge poured into me faster than I could comprehend.  My world became a playground and I could not wait to see what the God of my understanding had for me every moment of everyday.  I began to notice that my world responded to me based upon my level of excitement.  As I watched the people around me that were still in turmoil within their mind, I began to see their fears had even emerged into physical ailments.  I began to look at fear from a different perspective and questioned if the God of my understanding did not hold fear and is only full of love, then where does this fear come from?  Then the day came when I received the knowledge that the fallen angels are real and they come into our thoughts to create illusions of our world.  Their goal is to keep us from finding love so we do not connect with the inner peace that leads us into a greater understanding of what God is inside of us.  I recall the day I came to this understanding as I saw fruit bats, butterflies, dragon flies, parakeets and vouchers swarm around me on my patio.  I heard a voice inside of me say, “They know I know”.  I didn’t know what that meant at the time and said it over and over that entire day.  I now understand as I know that it is my responsibility to share what I have learned. 

We are at war within our thoughts that come from a world very few of us have been given the knowledge to understand.  We are not alone and angels and demons are real.  Some of us choose to ignore them and do not even realize we are being controlled by an unseen world.  Slowly, as those of us who are tired of being tired wake up, we will begin to realize that we are in a battle for our life on this planet.  The unseen world is emerging into our reality moment by moment.  Once we are aware of this world within our mind, we cannot go back to sleep.  Because our planet is so unbalanced, the suicide rate continues to rise as many of us loose this battle.  My hope is that those of you who see me as someone who has lived the hell and knows the demons inside, will see that we do not have to suffer any longer.  There is Something Greater at work in our life calling to us for the change that is coming.  We can choose to pretend that it is not there and look the other way as everything around us falls apart or we can begin sifting through our thoughts and taking control of what we want and what we do not want inside of our mind.  As we take control, we will then be able to help others learn how to do the same.  It all starts inside of each and every one of us.  “Seek and ye shall find” (Matthew 7:7).

 

The Foot In Front of Me

There are times in our life that we feel like we are walking on a wire and either way we fall off will lead us into insanity.  These are the times to look at the foot in front of us.  Some of us may be fortunate enough to never have experienced such a feeling of not being in control of our thoughts.  For those of us who have been there or who are there right now, the foot in front of you has a great meaning behind it. 

I found that as I looked at the foot in front of me and thought of nothing else, I did not think and was purely in the moment.  As I look back on that time period, I recall when I stopped thinking and when I just looked at my foot and saw nothing.  Everything just disappeared for that one instant and my thoughts were gone.  The more I did stop and look at my foot, the more I found that I felt better.  I wasn’t thinking of my past or my future and all the things I could have done or all the things I should have done.  I was in the moment looking at me.  As I trained my thoughts around this experience, I began to find acceptance as I looked at the foot in front of me.  Now as I look back, I know it was a message to myself to focus on right now because that is all we have.  As I sifted through all my thoughts, I found pieces of them everywhere within my mind.  As I tried to separate them to figure out what they were, they went all the way back to either love or fear.  As I learned about a God that was of my understanding, I had to consider what everything was that fits into all the theories ever made by man. I read and studied the theory of everything.  With each time I calmed my mind, questions would arise about how life is for me.  How did I reach the point where I had to look at the foot in front of me and what does the moment mean anyway?  The day I realized something was talking to me in my world made me look at that moment where I focused on my foot again.  With each time I looked at each moment and realized that all of them together makes me who I am today, the foot in front of me takes a different meaning.  It brings me to the moment that is the essence of my existence.  Everything I am is right in front of me spilling out for all to see from the inside.  As I looked at the world around me, I began to see messages of who I was inside.  The butterfly and the dragonfly appeared everywhere as I thought about them.  I then became fascinated with how our thoughts can bring things into our reality.  When I explored how energy works, I discovered that energy cannot be destroyed, it just changes form.  There is something talking to me in my world and in my mind.  At one point, I thought that I had went insane.  I write all these thoughts down that consume me.  I wake up in the middle of the night with a voice telling me what to write.  Words flow from my fingers with some of them making no sense at all to me.  As I share the information with a select few to see what I write, I was at first startled to find that they are parallel with the Bible.  I feel this presence with me all the time and at times feel like I am two people. Some days I can see myself walking down the hallway.  I feel that someone is with me at all time.  I discovered that this is called the Holy Spirit. That is a story for another day.  I began reading the Bible and piecing together what I wrote.  I go back to the moment when I first really looked at the foot in front of me and how I strive for that feeling at all times now. I now learn a whole new world as the Bible introduces me to angels and demons.  The journey into that world will be shared as well, but for today, it is how I took my thoughts and stopped them from over taking me as I looked at the foot in front of me.