To Heal

I was woken up at 3:33am and then again at 5:55am with thoughts of the prophet Jesus in my mind. It is said the he is the son of God. He healed the blind and raised the dead. He broke the barrier between the spirit world and this dimension. He said that what he did, we could also. He changed the physical world with his thoughts of faith in what God is capable of doing.

I am amazed at the things that Jesus did and taught while he was in human form. He healed others that were instantly changed by his touch and his words. How does faith cure the sick and heal the dying? Jesus said that what he did, we could do also. He is the key for me to unlock the door of how to heal. Just as I look to the angels for protection, I look to Jesus as the way to heal. He is an example of what the spirit is capable of in human form. He defied gravity and walked on water. Many say that these stories are not true. All I know is that I experience a feeling of hope when thinking that Jesus taught a way to worship the Creator of All and bring this source into this dimension to love and heal all who will believe. Do I dare to believe that this world that Jesus talked about can heal the dying?

I recall the day I realized that there is something out there listening to my thoughts. I was at first scared and looked around to see how a prayer I said over and over appeared in a painting. I questioned the probability of such an experience to be slim-to-none. As my awareness grew, events became like a movie in my head. I looked for verification that I had not lost my mind. I started to define the thoughts that caused me fear. I went back to the beginning of those fears. As I noticed the greater good of the cycle from fear to love, I realized I was different after the completion of each cycle. The leap in my awareness was astronomical as I found peace within my thoughts. The more I felt this presence all around me, the better I felt.

I thought I wanted to die when I found out I had breast cancer. I was alone inside my thoughts at that time and I had no purpose within myself. Today I sit alone yet I am not alone and I know that I am creating in this dimension with a world that I have yet to understand. I now have a purpose and I know that my thoughts about who I am are all I have. All the expectations placed upon me do not define who I am with “Me”.

I choose to believe that Jesus broke the barrier between the spirit world and our dimension. I choose to believe that Jesus healed the sick and raised the dead because of the documented accounts from those who witnessed his abilities. I choose to see my thoughts and beliefs in these occurrences as a way to heal myself.  

Do I dare to believe that a man named Jesus showed us how to heal? I know I feel better by believing that such things can occur and I have healed myself from cancer and lupus after becoming aware that there is a world within my thoughts that alters my reality.

This time I have God that is showing me how to accept right where I am as I look within a world that shows me a different view. A view that is full of love and heals me inside, if only for the day.

“If you look inside the view that shows you another place, you will see the part of you that shows you all the love.  This place will be inside your mind and only you can find it.  All the misery that you can hold will then become a dream.  The view will change in the blink of an eye as you find the love.  The colors will become a clue that you have found this view. “—The View by Lisa Hynes

The Darkness of Uncertainty

My thoughts shine bright like the afternoon sun with shadows of despair as Tuesday’s surgery looms in the distance. I see myself walking onward with glimpses of my faith that sparkle as the butterfly that passes by. The shadows of dread cover parts of my path today as I prepare for what lies before me. Regardless of the outcome of this surgery, I will be forever changed. If it is not cancer, I will be making new promises to the God of my understanding regarding the care I give to my body (or lack thereof) as I find a new appreciation for who I am in human form.

Do I dare to think that I may have to make the decision to go through chemotherapy yet again? Either path I look towards on this journey as I prepare for Tuesday, I ensure that I carry the necessities. I feel numb as I take yet another trip into the thoughts of cancer in my mind. I have my faith that I carry with me at all times. This faith is the light that I shine into the darkness that lies all around me. I have freewill to stand in this light or to move into the darkness of uncertainty that shadows my faith.

I have freewill to develop any sort of relationship I choose with the source of all creation. My God lets me grow any way I choose. As I stand at the crossroad with my faith shining brightly, I look towards both roads with one leading towards cancer and I know that whichever path I travel on Tuesday, I am not alone this time.

I am forever changed because my God is there all around me shining through the darkness of uncertainty. I look at the edges of the darkness and see my fear as the way to gain strength to move forward because of the darkness. There is nothing else to do but keep moving on and I choose to view the crossroad of this realization as the next step on my spiritual journey in my attempts to develop the highest level of awareness I can find while in human form on my path towards love.

“The thoughts that lead you to this path of fear will trail all the way back to a time when you had no knowledge of how to fight against the fear. You experienced the fear from the beginning to find the part inside of you that can grow into a love that is ever evolving in your life.  How can you know the love without knowing what it is not?”—The Sword and the Shield 

The Horse of Serenity

Today I fight with my thoughts and it is taking great effort to look inside myself for meaning. It is like a battle in my mind with all my fears at the forefront trying to conquer what little serenity I have. It is as if a force is trying to break my faith that is dark and full of anger. As I muster up the thoughts of who I am because of my faith, slowly the serenity comes into view. It gallops out into the sun where my faith lies and it holds the sword of honesty and the shield of hope and faith as it battles with the darkness that lies inside of me.

The sword of honesty cuts through the anger that I hold because of my past and because of my up-coming surgery. It shows me the greater good of this thing called life. The serenity gallops onward like the grace of a horse that rides away after the battle has been won. I stand in the middle of the battlefield looking in awe at what this horse of serenity is doing for me. The sword of honesty cuts through all the pain and anguish that now lies at my feet. The shield of hope and faith is now in my hand shining proudly for all to see.

The darkness curls up in the corner of my mind waiting for the opportunity to seep into my soul and take the spark of life I have found to turn it into a storm that rages inside of me. I look towards the God of my understanding who promises to give me the wisdom to know what I can change and the courage to carry those thoughts for change out into action. As long as I remind myself that all I do is for my Creator, the protection surrounds me to do just that for today only.

I see this horse of serenity galloping around me all in white and the rider is an extension of my God that forms into an image that I can understand. The rider is the spirit of God that leads me into a place within my thoughts that sparkles with all the faith that I can find today.

As I stand in the middle of the battlefield, all the regrets and all the thoughts of not being worthy enough lie around this field reflecting back to me as the parts that are dying and have no life left inside of me. I breathe in the air and stand with my hands outstretched towards the sky. The spirit swirls around me in the wind and as I breathe, the horse of serenity becomes a part of me.

This graceful white horse of serenity gallops around me to ensure that all my dying regrets and thoughts of worthlessness that lie on the battlefield in my mind do not affect this feeling of peace that now consumes me.

The rider on the horse of serenity holds the sword of honesty that cuts through any thoughts that try to touch the peace that I have found. As I stand with my arms outstretched to the sky with the shield of hope and faith that shine in the sunlight of my path, I know that this part of me can never be taken away by anyone because my God promises me that I am never alone even in my thoughts.

“With good intensions as you seek for love, the pain of yesterday turns into strength and courage for today.  There will come a day when you will understand how all this pain brought you to a level within your mind that you no longer need to suffer with your thoughts.”—The Shield of Love by Lisa Hynes

 

 

No Where Else Will Do

I woke up knowing that my thoughts can make or break me today. I know that if I think thoughts that lead me to an idea that this surgery will result in finding out I have cancer, I will make myself sick. I choose to think that everything will be “fine” and my responsibility in all this is to stay positive.

My thoughts are pulled into my past and all that brought me here. My regrets are turning into the strength of who I am because of them. The God of my understanding is a healing God full of love and patience. As the darkness tries to crawl into my soul, my Creator brings me love to make all new with light, love and healing. The awareness of this moment swirls around me with the air that blends the spirit behind my thoughts. I try to take all doubts and turn them into the knowledge of how my thoughts make my reality. The healing begins inside my thoughts and I want to be the one to say my faith in my God healed me and I will not have sickness any more.

I remind myself that if I ask, I will receive what lies behind my intensions. I know my intensions are to allow the God of my understanding into my life and “Thy will be done”. I am empty without God and I never want to feel that experience again. I am here with my past that blends into who I am and I look towards my future with anticipation of what my God is leading me towards.

I reach out at every moment to serve my God in whatever way I can show my faithfulness. There is no room in my thoughts for anything else and my belief in this takes the spirit and intertwines it with my soul for the feeling that spreads throughout my body. I am nothing without Something Greater and I seek every waking moment to find something that reflects the language my Creator speaks to me in a way that I can understand.

Life feels like a riddle some days and today had many riddles to study on my search for answers. At the end of the day, I looked at my actions and knew that I gave my best in all affairs I was blessed to be a part of. I am right where Something Greater wants me to be and nowhere else will do.

“The spirit of love will bring you one type of feeling and thought while the spirit of fear will bring you another.  You will go back and forth with thoughts and feelings trying to decide who you are and you will find that you are right where you are and nothing more.”--  Right Where You Are by Lisa Hynes

To Make the Moment New

Today there is a stillness in the air all around me. I remind myself that the spirit lies between my thoughts and emotions and I see a see-saw in my mind. How do I balance the thoughts and feelings that make me question why I am here at this moment? Which way do I go today in my mind? I go back to the times when I didn’t believe in anything except what I could see in front of me. The lack of my awareness at those times in my life resulted in my missing so much that glows and sparkles all around me.

I consciously know that I have to train my thoughts to not go back to the times when I had no belief in Something Greater or in myself for that matter. I grasp for the connection to my higher power and remind myself that my purpose here lies in an unseen world. I can choose to sit in the thoughts of turmoil about “what if?” and look at all the horrible events that have occurred and are occurring in our world or I can seek for peace inside myself as I look towards how to take this moment and make it something new.

How do I make the day feel new when I feel so worn and beaten down? The gratitude in what I have today brings me a feeling of love. The feeling of love makes all seem new. I breathe in the air and know that the promises of what Something Greater is doing in my life lies inside the part of me that takes my thoughts and emotions and balances them on the scale of life. This is the part of me that takes my actions and brings me gifts that are promised because of my thoughts that have turned into actions. My faith in those promises will bring me the courage to seek for more because of this faith. The promises will become the gifts that have been spoken of throughout history. My faith in this process will heal me from the inside-out as I prepare for surgery on Tuesday.

“For those of us who choose to travel the path with Something Greater, we will hear the voice inside verify that what we see around us is a result of what we think it is and we will have the choice to acknowledge that it is from Something Greater and that these gifts and messages are there for the awakening on our path to Something Greater.” The Gifts by Lisa Hynes