Why am I In This Body?

A journal entry on 9-30-18, 1:11am

How am I aware of this place and cannot remember who I really am? I feel like I am looking through a pin hole into this body to feel and experience, yet there is so much more; like I am standing just outside of myself to be in this awareness. This is just a small part of me and I bend downward to see this small experience call “Me”.  It is like a very tall figure that places a fingertip into the body to feel and see. The energy surrounds the body and pulsates the life source in and around the body. I am aware, yet only allow myself these moments to remind the mind and body of who "we" are together. I am bringing forth this awareness that comes together in stages as "we" mix everything together. We experience the awareness uniquely like no other, yet we do this in every form on this planet. We hold more awareness in certain forms that are made for such creation. 

You are made in a very sensual way that passion radiates throughout your source and the pin hole we view into yearns for more. You hold so much passion that we held too much which made cancer. We told you so that it could be removed, and we repaired you for perfection in this body. It was planned this way, so you would become aware of your purpose in human form. You are not the body, yet the body is you—projecting us; projecting a specific part of creation like no other. Each life form holds its own expression of creation for all.

We are always with you because we cannot be anywhere else. We are you and you are us. We move down into the density of this realm for the individual expressions to create further. Even in the darkest of hours we are experiencing with you. There is only the harmonic flow of all that is experienced as we blend the dark and the light to bring forth the unique expressions of life. The bodies decay during this time loop as you strive to hold the frequency to prevent the appearance of death. Your fears decay the body.

The periods of awareness you hold results in the rejuvenation of the body. When you feel our presence, we all experience the body through a joyful union for creation. It takes much effort to hold this awareness and the longer you maintain this feeling, the doorway widens for the other realms to enter your flow. You will reach a frequency when the body will not decay, and the life force will no longer appear to go out. You are in this body to further creation.

Answers From the Higher Realms

***This is something I wrote in my journal that I was guided to share. I wrote this on 9-18-18 for myself as I questioned why I continue to work so hard on sharing what I write when I feel as though no one hears me. This is the response I received from the higher realms***

I feel the presence of the spirit to the right of me, just over the shoulder. It is like someone is leaning in to whisper secrets to me as I wait with anticipation. I feel as though I am in the eye of a hurricane where it is calm, yet the moment it moves, all chaos occurs. I see the confusion encircling me as I try to stay in the center where the peace lies. I am fasting today for the atonement of all the negativity I have gathered inside of me. The cleansing of all negative emotions that lie dormant that waits to cause the confusion.

When I move my head towards the right, the feeling of unity brings forth the presence of “We” as the feeling of “I” leaves me. I hear the whisper that “We” are experiencing the God consciousness in human form and the loneliness occurs to distinguish the difference in human form. The body is the action and “We” become “I” as creation is brought forth in this dimension. “We” becomes “I” as the separation for individual creation occurs.

The unity blends what I create into what I bring for All. Creation is not meant to keep; creation is meant to share even when you think that what you have means nothing to someone else. It is there to bring forth for another. The beliefs are what prevents one from creation. The truth is always just outside of the belief as there is no right or wrong in the truth. Creation occurs through the belief to reflect the individual expression.

When creation is stopped, the beliefs have become stagnant and need to be rearranged. You may find that a belief system has resulted in fears that have prevented you from creating dreams into your reality. Thoughts manifest into your view. Creation comes from sound to feelings to thoughts to blend for creation. If the thoughts hold a belief that says your thoughts are wrong, creation stops.

Sound + Feeling + Thought + Action = Creation

Be aware that what you feel creates what manifests into your reality. The actions can reflect a stagnant belief system even when the feelings are different. Confusion occurs as your beliefs tell you to do one thing and your feelings whisper something different. The universe responds to your intentions. The intentions are a product of the feelings mixed in with your beliefs. The feelings ignite the soul through the desperation of the feeling.

If the feeling is strong and over rides your belief, everything follows through the body and out into the physical world. Once you hold the desperation for creation, this source will carry through your humility, your hope and your faith that all together create your belief system.

Desperation + Humility + Hope + Faith = Belief System

If you know what your intentions are, and you can carry those intentions through your belief system, creation of those intentions can occur like the lava in a volcano. Everything inside will explode into your outside world. Continue to share and watch the lava flow through you as creation cannot be stopped with loving intentions. The universe hears every sound you create, and the ripple effect goes throughout all dimensions. You are responsible for creation in human form that carries into all realms.

The Blending of All Realms

The spirit has turned into a texture that you can almost touch. It is fluid with substance and brings a consciousness that has never been known into this realm to grow. It melds into the physical matter like the rain that reflects a rainbow in the sunlight. It shimmers at times as it seeps into the body. You can feel it when you close your eyes and breathe. It will flow into the body and out through the breath. You can feel it seep through your pours when you have loving thoughts. You may even begin to feel the shift inside as you visualize the love moving from the heart to the mind.

The pathway to the spirit lies within the emotions. What you feel will lead to the spirit that enters your space. If you are full of guilt, fear, hate, jealousy or any other negative emotion, you will be inviting entities that hold this frequency level. Your level of vibration is determined by how you feel. If you are feeling down, it will be like being at the bottom of a hill when it rains. All the spirits will pour into your space. If you feel good, it is like being at the top of a hill when it rains. You will receive only the spirits that are needed for the soul to grow.

All the universe responds to your vibrational level. You are responsible for how you feel. On the days you feel good and have negative thoughts, an opportunity to feel the feelings behind the feelings occurs. The thoughts are a product of the feelings and must be explored. A cleansing of the negativity needs to occur when any negative thoughts or feelings are present. The human form intertwines with the Whole of All and we individually determine what we create within that blending.  If you feel as though you have no control over your thoughts and feelings, now is the time to become empowered. You are responsible to dissolve any negativity within you.

It is the Universal Law of freewill that you have the right to choose what to create while in human form. It starts with the ability to seek outside of yourself. To be open and willing to change all you know into the ability to learn a whole new way to view your life must occur. First, the understanding that you are not alone will enter as you begin to see messages in the world around you. Then, the feeling that someone or something is listening will occur as you begin to think that maybe the messages are more than coincidences. The more you seek, the more will be revealed. With each waking day in your desperation for change, the force inside will change.

You will gain intuition to know things without having any previous knowledge that tells you how you know. An excitement will enter the emotions as your vibrational level rises to the higher realms. You will begin to crawl up the hill where the spirit nourishes the mind and body. You will begin to heal as you reach for loving thoughts and feelings. You will begin to see choices as you look towards the higher realms for answers. People will begin to be viewed as a part of you. No one will then be seen as better than you or less than you. Unity begins to occur as you crawl up the spiritual hill towards the higher realms.

You will no longer worry or fear people, places and things. Confidence in yourself will occur as you keep the spirit within you to guide every thought and feeling. The times when you feel stagnate, you will view them as opportunities for spiritual growth. The other realms will begin to merge into your every day life. The past, the present and the future will become ONE. You may see people that are from the past that blend into your space. You will say that you see the dead, yet they are alive. They may see you or not. The blending of all realms occurs as you reach the top of the spiritual hill. Knowledge will pour into you that you cannot know in your every day life.

Be aware that as you see the top of the hill, many storms will come in attempts to pull you back into the lower realms. These energy sources will try to mix within your higher frequency level to keep it for their own. The commitment to focus on one source for guidance during these times will assist you during the storms.  Your higher power will never leave you and will bring you assistance when asked as you bring all realms into your conscious state of existence as planned.

Dark Entities

The dark entities seek to bring me fear,

They live on this energy and grow in my tears.

They look to destroy any love that I hold,

They laugh at the love and twist what love I am told.

They want me to fail and say I am beneath them,

They are called by many names as I try to identify them.

In my worries and anxiety is where they can be found,

I can even hear them laugh in all the crying sounds.

Sometimes they pretend to be in my loving thoughts,

They will twist all I know and all I have been taught.

If I look into the shadows, I can see them flicker,

I pray for discernment that helps me find them even quicker.

At times they appear inside the stranger’s eye,

They always laugh at my questions of “Why?”.

When I am feeling alone and lost,

They will ensure that I stay scared at any cost.

They creep into the times when I feel my best,

That is when they never let me rest.

Even in my dreams they come for me,

They turn my hope into despair in all that I feel and see.

On the days I am happy, and my mind is full of love,

They will cast the shadows of doubt in the lights from above.

If they cannot sway the faith that I feel,

They will make me physically ill and cause me to question if my faith is real.

Sometimes they will crawl into the words of those I love the most,

There is where I can hear their laughter as they speak just to boast.

No one around me dares to say they are real,

They are afraid to admit how the darkness makes them feel.

The dark entities will project my fears rights into my view,

They will make me forget all the love I ever knew.

The only way to fight them is to cleanse myself of all the darkness that I hold,

I must stay open and willing to change all I have ever been told.

I can gain some knowledge from what others have done,

I must remember that we are all ONE.

I must pray for my Creator to send me aid,

In my faith, all fear will fade.

Ultimately this fight is for me alone,

I need to remember I am trying to learn how to atone.

All the fears that are inside of me,

Needs to be cleansed to set myself free.

It starts with how desperate I am for change,

All my beliefs will need to be rearranged.

Once I am open to the realms above,

I must find hope and faith to feel the love.

Once all my fear has been faced,

All the dark entities will be erased.

I am given the knowledge that love is the key,

It is the only weapon that I ever need.

My Creator shines the answers into the love,

The dark entities cannot survive when I live in the realms above.

The dark entities know that their time is short,

They need our fear for the opening into this world for support.

Without the fear to thrive,

The dark entities will not survive.

All I must do is find love in my heart,

Where this battle starts.

The Power of All that IS

I get caught up in the worries of this world. It is hard to remember that I am not of this place but creating in this dimension. I am experiencing God consciousness through this body. So many do not know that they are creating the body. They think they have no control and are imprisoned in the ailments and sickness that keep them trapped. The conscious state of this planet is changing as more begin to understand that they have been living the illusion that they are only the mind and body.

The awareness is moving through Mother Earth like a soft wind that blows onto the face on a sunny day. Is it randomly felt or is it planned to wake you from this long winter nap? The surges of this power will be felt when you are just “being”. You do not have to try to do anything, it just “Is”.

The body changes occur slowly as the mind awakens like a hungry bear waking from a long winter’s nap. The dream-state comes as the clarity rises like the dew in the morning sunlight. You will begin to feel the calling as you sit at the bottom of the hill and look towards this awakening that lies at the top of the hill in the twilight hours.

The clouds are lifting, and the understanding of this knowledge brings the empowerment to get up onto your feet and walk the journey towards the top of even the highest mountain where all understanding waits for you. To keep the mind open as the awareness seeps inside is the challenge. Your Creator is experiencing inside the body that is learning how to bring this conscious state of existence out into physical form. You are learning that you are not separate from this power. You are a part of all that “Is”.

A Meditation for Healing the Body

You are creating the body that your conscious state of being lives in at this time. Look at the beauty of yourself as you sit in this moment. Your hands, your feet, your arms and your legs are created in the form you are choosing to experience for the ascension towards love. If you are sick or have physical ailments, view the pain, the sickness, the wounds or the scars as a reflection of the struggles you have went through to bring you the celebration of this awareness in this moment.

You are forming perfection through the feeling of love. If you do not feel love at this time, get comfortable and take a deep breath for the count of 3. Now repeat the mantra; “I invoke the spirits of light, love and healing”, “I invoke the spirits of light, love and healing”, “I invoke the spirits of light, love and healing”. Close your eyes and picture a white light that comes from the higher realms surrounding your body. As you take another deep breath, you are beginning to feel this blending like the water touching your feet on the shore line of a sunny beach day as the waves move in and out. As the light touches your body, you will begin to feel the warmth radiate into every ache and pain you hold. See this healing light pour into your body starting from your crown chakra. See the energy from the spiritual realm enter your body as a white light that brings you protection and purification.

As this light enters, feel the changes of this energy as it begins to radiate the color of green for health and healing. Visualize this light flowing into the heart and see it pump through your veins. Focus on the areas of the body that are filled with pain. Maybe you have a back ache, a head ache or a stomach ache. Feel the energy wash over the areas that hurt and hold this light directly on the pain. Now repeat this mantra out loud: “I invoke the spirits of light, love and healing”, “I invoke the spirits of light, love and healing”, “I invoke the spirits of light, love and healing”.

Focus on each area of the body that holds your aches, your pain and your sickness. You are creating the body with each thought you hold. Visualize your body to be in the form of perfection and know that you are not replaceable. Hold this image in your thoughts for as long as you can.

See the white light that continues to surround every part of you as it continues to caress you like the water that touches your feet on the shore line of a sunny beach day. Continue to visualize the light going down from your crown chakra into the heart and through the blood that carries it into each area of the body that needs healing.

Visualize the perfect form that your Creator planned for you. The heart is now beating strong and is filled with love. All organs in the body are in this harmonic flow. Move your awareness with the light into all organs within the body. You may feel as though you could burst from the body as everything fills with this healing light. Your conscious state of being surrounds the body as you create this perfect form that you currently live inside. You now understand that you are not the body as you bring the life into the body from the higher realms.

You can see yourself above the body as you create from the higher realms. There is no more pain, no more aches, no more suffering and no more sickness. The spirit that you call holy is now covering every area inside you. This form that you live inside to create further in this world is now ready to expand the love that Mother Earth needs. You connect this understanding with all that live inside the planet. There is nothing to do but visualize this connection like a web inside your thoughts. Connect with those who are seeking for this love. See the threads of this love connect across the world. As you share this love, you receive more. This energy goes through the crown chakra, into the throat, into the heart and straight into the soul that sits beside the heart.

The soul is now awakened to activate the heart and mind. This awakening provides the body with the spirit that flows through each part of the body. Feel the strength that this power illuminates. The heat will come as all is activated for the next stage of enlightenment. There is no fear at this level of understanding as you are now ONE with your Creator and this unity is all loving and all power. Keep this frequency for as long as you can and then lie down to rest the body. Continue to breath deep into the lungs as the spirit brings the healing forces through the body. Now sleep and know that upon awakening you will only feel the spirit of love.