The Begining

I come to you with a message and know I am the vessel for this greatness I have found.  To appreciate the words I speak, you must hear my story.  I am no more special than you, if anything, I crawl out of the darkness covered in mud and despair.  Through my desperation, I prayed for something to bring me peace inside.  Full of anxiety and fear, I walked through my days a shell of a person.  In my desperation, I decided to try and verbalize my need for help.  After all, I had nothing else to try because nothing else had helped relieve my pain and anguish.  I prayed out loud every day at least five times a day, “May the grace of God shine down on me”.  I began to search in other people for my answers but I could not talk to anyone without crying.  Communicating my thoughts was a challenge because I couldn’t identify with what I was feeling.  I knew that I had lost my motivation to live.  I couldn’t be with other people yet I couldn’t be alone.  My body shook all the time from the anxiety that became a part of my everyday life.  I had a difficult time getting through the moment, let alone the day. 

I was going through treatment for breast cancer, addiction and divorce all at the same time.  My life was at a crossroads with little hope down any path.  It was all I could do to get up in the morning and make myself go to work.  The only thing that kept me going were my children who needed their mother.

 On March 15, 2013 I had an experience that changed my life.  I was in a thrift store trying to help a little old woman get a picture that was stacked against the wall behind a lot of other pictures.  She was so unusual with a cane on each side that had handles wrapped around her wrists.  She wore a Dr. Seuss-looking grey hat.  She was loud and obnoxious as she ordered me to get a picture from the back of the stack.  It was a large painting and it was heavy.  I did not look at what the picture was and did not care about anything at that time.  The woman began yelling at me, “there are words on the bottom” and she told me to read the words.  I said that I could not see the words because they were so small.  She yelled, “Get down there and read the words and read them loud because I can’t hear good”.  I had to get on my hands and knees to see the words that read, “The grace of God shines on Thine”.  As I read the words, I began to feel something inside of me stirring.  I looked at the painting that was of a church with the sun shining through some trees and I began to cry.  I looked up at the woman who was still waving her cane at me and I realized that Something Greater was at work for me to have such an experience.  The woman did not know that I had been praying this prayer for several weeks now and here I was on my hands and knees reading my prayer in a painting with a rude little woman standing above me ordering me around.  As I tried to get up off the floor, my whole perspective on my life changed within an instant.  I was in a dream state as I tried to process what was happening.  I felt as if I was floating as I made my way home that night. 

The next morning, I felt a presence around me that began talking to me.  I was told to write a book with the title “In the Mind of Something Greater”.   On March 16, 2013 I began writing what I heard in my head and knew that what I wrote was my responsibility to share with others. The voice was strong in my mind and it gave me knowledge that I could not have acquired by myself.  It wakes me up in the middle of the night with the urgency to write with no consistency to when this will happen or for how long I will write.   My writing changes as my awareness grows.  “I”, “We” and “You” are all used interchangeably.  There are times in my writing that I cannot do anything but write and when I go back to read it “you” is written regardless of my attempts to keep this information just about me.  There are times that the voice inside my head becomes so strong, my words are written from the “I” perspective when the information is from Something Greater than myself.

 The knowledge I have been given has changed me forever as my words have led me to a greater understanding about life.  I have the ability to combine the physical world and the spiritual world and there is perfect order in this process.  The key to it all is within each of us as we have the ability to bring heaven into our everyday world. 

 As I write, I read the words over and over and know that Something Greater is at work in my life.  I now see that there is no secret to this knowledge, we just forgot and now our fears block us from the truth. I am now like the hungry bear waking up from a winter sleep.  I share my story that I receive from Something Greater.  The source of this knowledge is within me and cannot be found in the world.  My thoughts and emotions are the key to this process.  If my thoughts are full of negativity, I will not understand.  If my emotions are full of fear, I cannot understand.  If I take the two and balance them for my foundation, I will grow with the knowledge that my emotions bring Something Greater into me and change my thoughts for my spiritual awakening. Through this process,  I discovered that my emotions are my link to Something Greater and if I listen, I will see the changes all around me as I prepare for the reality of what I am inside. 

 My message is one that many throughout history have shared.  I only elaborate on how I reached this level of understanding for myself.  I had to go through many emotions to find my heaven on earth and each emotion brings me one step closer to this awakening.  I now understand what the battle between the darkness and the light is all about.  It is within me.  My fears block me from the truth and with each barrier I break through, more understanding emerges.  I reflect Something Greater in human form.  Freewill is given for my uniqueness to express my interpretation of Something Greater in a way that only I can do with these choices. 

 Even though my experiences may be different than yours, the end result is the same.  I am in the mind of Something Greater in physical form.  With each passing day, as I seek for more knowledge in this process, I see the world around me changing into an exciting place, full of wonder and awe. The homeless man on the street corner now represents a part of me.  The people in my life that causes me stress and difficulty now force me to look at what part of myself needs to change.  The rain now symbolizes a reflection of my emotions.  I see myself in all around me.  The times I thought I was helping someone else has turned into the realization that I really helped myself.  The relationships that caused me so much pain has turned into the understanding that I was really working through the fears within myself.  I came to the realization that all I went through in my life was necessary for my understanding to reach the next level of my consciousness.  Everything around me holds new meaning now.  Even the dragonfly that appears is now symbolic of the transformation I am going through as a result.  My belief of the perfection of this process brings me messages in everything around me.  Speaking my truth brings my thoughts and emotions into my reality.  As I seek every day for more understanding, more is revealed to me.

This is my journey into the other worlds through desperation and hope that there is Something Greater out there.  I see changes in my understanding of what the darkness and the light is inside of all of us.  The evil is the fear that turns into the ability to intentionally take away another person’s ability to grow.  To repress another person’s progress is the greatest of all sins and the fear turns into a cesspool of misery for all those involved.

I have learned that the world around me responds to my thoughts and feelings and will travel through space and time in attempts to create whatever I think and feel.  The times I question why things are happening to me and think someone else has done something harmful to me, I find lessons in these experiences with a greater understanding as to why things occurred the way they did for me.  I have learned that sometimes things were taken from me so I could replace them with a new found understanding for who I am becoming.  My reflections of the things that have occurred have turned into a sadness of what I was and what I am no longer and at the same time, I find a new appreciation for what I am becoming. 

Without the darkness, I could not see the light.  I had to reach up from this darkness of despair to find that the light of happiness was always there.  I struggle on a daily basis to understand this new level of awareness.  I am accepting that I will not be able to comprehend the greatness of the source that lies within me.  It is difficult at times for me to understand why this knowledge was given to a scared and miserable person such as myself.  What I have inside my thoughts and emotions bursts from my pores to share with others.  I catch myself thinking of what others will say about what I write and I remind myself that I cannot carry who they are inside and they have their own journey to walk.

My disagreements with others are turning into the truth of who I am and the freedom of this knowledge brings me to a new understanding about myself.  I am humbled through this process with gratitude that brings me a strength from what lies inside.  I see the pain that others experience as their journey with the ability to give them a new understanding through my words.  I find that as I speak the truth to others, the words activate something inside of them to find what they seek as well.  I now know that it is in all of us and it is my responsibility to give pieces of my strength to those who will listen.  I have been given a gift that I must share.  I am opening the blinds to my eyes with caution so that it does not overwhelm me with the light as I share what has been given to me.
I come to you with a message and know I am the vessel for this greatness I have found.  To appreciate the words I speak, you must hear my story.  I am no more special than you, if anything, I crawl out of the darkness covered in mud and despair.  Through my desperation, I prayed for something to bring me peace inside.  Full of anxiety and fear, I walked through my days a shell of a person.  In my desperation, I decided to try and verbalize my need for help.  After all, I had nothing else to try because nothing else had helped relieve my pain and anguish.  I prayed out loud every day at least five times a day, “May the grace of God shine down on me”.  I began to search in other people for my answers but I could not talk to anyone without crying.  Communicating my thoughts was a challenge because I couldn’t identify with what I was feeling.  I knew that I had lost my motivation to live.  I couldn’t be with other people yet I couldn’t be alone.  My body shook all the time from the anxiety that became a part of my everyday life.  I had a difficult time getting through the moment, let alone the day. 

I was going through treatment for breast cancer, addiction and divorce all at the same time.  My life was at a crossroads with little hope down any path.  It was all I could do to get up in the morning and make myself go to work.  The only thing that kept me going were my children who needed their mother.

 On March 15, 2013 I had an experience that changed my life.  I was in a thrift store trying to help a little old woman get a picture that was stacked against the wall behind a lot of other pictures.  She was so unusual with a cane on each side that had handles wrapped around her wrists.  She wore a Dr. Seuss-looking grey hat.  She was loud and obnoxious as she ordered me to get a picture from the back of the stack.  It was a large painting and it was heavy.  I did not look at what the picture was and did not care about anything at that time.  The woman began yelling at me, “there are words on the bottom” and she told me to read the words.  I said that I could not see the words because they were so small.  She yelled, “Get down there and read the words and read them loud because I can’t hear good”.  I had to get on my hands and knees to see the words that read, “The grace of God shines on Thine”.  As I read the words, I began to feel something inside of me stirring.  I looked at the painting that was of a church with the sun shining through some trees and I began to cry.  I looked up at the woman who was still waving her cane at me and I realized that Something Greater was at work for me to have such an experience.  The woman did not know that I had been praying this prayer for several weeks now and here I was on my hands and knees reading my prayer in a painting with a rude little woman standing above me ordering me around.  As I tried to get up off the floor, my whole perspective on my life changed within an instant.  I was in a dream state as I tried to process what was happening.  I felt as if I was floating as I made my way home that night. 

The next morning, I felt a presence around me that began talking to me.  I was told to write a book with the title “In the Mind of Something Greater”.   On March 16, 2013 I began writing what I heard in my head and knew that what I wrote was my responsibility to share with others. The voice was strong in my mind and it gave me knowledge that I could not have acquired by myself.  It wakes me up in the middle of the night with the urgency to write with no consistency to when this will happen or for how long I will write.   My writing changes as my awareness grows.  “I”, “We” and “You” are all used interchangeably.  There are times in my writing that I cannot do anything but write and when I go back to read it “you” is written regardless of my attempts to keep this information just about me.  There are times that the voice inside my head becomes so strong, my words are written from the “I” perspective when the information is from Something Greater than myself.

 The knowledge I have been given has changed me forever as my words have led me to a greater understanding about life.  I have the ability to combine the physical world and the spiritual world and there is perfect order in this process.  The key to it all is within each of us as we have the ability to bring heaven into our everyday world. 

 As I write, I read the words over and over and know that Something Greater is at work in my life.  I now see that there is no secret to this knowledge, we just forgot and now our fears block us from the truth. I am now like the hungry bear waking up from a winter sleep.  I share my story that I receive from Something Greater.  The source of this knowledge is within me and cannot be found in the world.  My thoughts and emotions are the key to this process.  If my thoughts are full of negativity, I will not understand.  If my emotions are full of fear, I cannot understand.  If I take the two and balance them for my foundation, I will grow with the knowledge that my emotions bring Something Greater into me and change my thoughts for my spiritual awakening. Through this process,  I discovered that my emotions are my link to Something Greater and if I listen, I will see the changes all around me as I prepare for the reality of what I am inside. 

 My message is one that many throughout history have shared.  I only elaborate on how I reached this level of understanding for myself.  I had to go through many emotions to find my heaven on earth and each emotion brings me one step closer to this awakening.  I now understand what the battle between the darkness and the light is all about.  It is within me.  My fears block me from the truth and with each barrier I break through, more understanding emerges.  I reflect Something Greater in human form.  Freewill is given for my uniqueness to express my interpretation of Something Greater in a way that only I can do with these choices. 

 Even though my experiences may be different than yours, the end result is the same.  I am in the mind of Something Greater in physical form.  With each passing day, as I seek for more knowledge in this process, I see the world around me changing into an exciting place, full of wonder and awe. The homeless man on the street corner now represents a part of me.  The people in my life that causes me stress and difficulty now force me to look at what part of myself needs to change.  The rain now symbolizes a reflection of my emotions.  I see myself in all around me.  The times I thought I was helping someone else has turned into the realization that I really helped myself.  The relationships that caused me so much pain has turned into the understanding that I was really working through the fears within myself.  I came to the realization that all I went through in my life was necessary for my understanding to reach the next level of my consciousness.  Everything around me holds new meaning now.  Even the dragonfly that appears is now symbolic of the transformation I am going through as a result.  My belief of the perfection of this process brings me messages in everything around me.  Speaking my truth brings my thoughts and emotions into my reality.  As I seek every day for more understanding, more is revealed to me.

This is my journey into the other worlds through desperation and hope that there is Something Greater out there.  I see changes in my understanding of what the darkness and the light is inside of all of us.  The evil is the fear that turns into the ability to intentionally take away another person’s ability to grow.  To repress another person’s progress is the greatest of all sins and the fear turns into a cesspool of misery for all those involved.

I have learned that the world around me responds to my thoughts and feelings and will travel through space and time in attempts to create whatever I think and feel.  The times I question why things are happening to me and think someone else has done something harmful to me, I find lessons in these experiences with a greater understanding as to why things occurred the way they did for me.  I have learned that sometimes things were taken from me so I could replace them with a new found understanding for who I am becoming.  My reflections of the things that have occurred have turned into a sadness of what I was and what I am no longer and at the same time, I find a new appreciation for what I am becoming. 

Without the darkness, I could not see the light.  I had to reach up from this darkness of despair to find that the light of happiness was always there.  I struggle on a daily basis to understand this new level of awareness.  I am accepting that I will not be able to comprehend the greatness of the source that lies within me.  It is difficult at times for me to understand why this knowledge was given to a scared and miserable person such as myself.  What I have inside my thoughts and emotions bursts from my pores to share with others.  I catch myself thinking of what others will say about what I write and I remind myself that I cannot carry who they are inside and they have their own journey to walk.

My disagreements with others are turning into the truth of who I am and the freedom of this knowledge brings me to a new understanding about myself.  I am humbled through this process with gratitude that brings me a strength from what lies inside.  I see the pain that others experience as their journey with the ability to give them a new understanding through my words.  I find that as I speak the truth to others, the words activate something inside of them to find what they seek as well.  I now know that it is in all of us and it is my responsibility to give pieces of my strength to those who will listen.  I have been given a gift that I must share.  I am opening the blinds to my eyes with caution so that it does not overwhelm me with the light as I share what has been given to me.
I come to you with a message and know I am the vessel for this greatness I have found.  To appreciate the words I speak, you must hear my story.  I am no more special than you, if anything, I crawl out of the darkness covered in mud and despair.  Through my desperation, I prayed for something to bring me peace inside.  Full of anxiety and fear, I walked through my days a shell of a person.  In my desperation, I decided to try and verbalize my need for help.  After all, I had nothing else to try because nothing else had helped relieve my pain and anguish.  I prayed out loud every day at least five times a day, “May the grace of God shine down on me”.  I began to search in other people for my answers but I could not talk to anyone without crying.  Communicating my thoughts was a challenge because I couldn’t identify with what I was feeling.  I knew that I had lost my motivation to live.  I couldn’t be with other people yet I couldn’t be alone.  My body shook all the time from the anxiety that became a part of my everyday life.  I had a difficult time getting through the moment, let alone the day. 

I was going through treatment for breast cancer, addiction and divorce all at the same time.  My life was at a crossroads with little hope down any path.  It was all I could do to get up in the morning and make myself go to work.  The only thing that kept me going were my children who needed their mother.

 On March 15, 2013 I had an experience that changed my life.  I was in a thrift store trying to help a little old woman get a picture that was stacked against the wall behind a lot of other pictures.  She was so unusual with a cane on each side that had handles wrapped around her wrists.  She wore a Dr. Seuss-looking grey hat.  She was loud and obnoxious as she ordered me to get a picture from the back of the stack.  It was a large painting and it was heavy.  I did not look at what the picture was and did not care about anything at that time.  The woman began yelling at me, “there are words on the bottom” and she told me to read the words.  I said that I could not see the words because they were so small.  She yelled, “Get down there and read the words and read them loud because I can’t hear good”.  I had to get on my hands and knees to see the words that read, “The grace of God shines on Thine”.  As I read the words, I began to feel something inside of me stirring.  I looked at the painting that was of a church with the sun shining through some trees and I began to cry.  I looked up at the woman who was still waving her cane at me and I realized that Something Greater was at work for me to have such an experience.  The woman did not know that I had been praying this prayer for several weeks now and here I was on my hands and knees reading my prayer in a painting with a rude little woman standing above me ordering me around.  As I tried to get up off the floor, my whole perspective on my life changed within an instant.  I was in a dream state as I tried to process what was happening.  I felt as if I was floating as I made my way home that night. 

The next morning, I felt a presence around me that began talking to me.  I was told to write a book with the title “In the Mind of Something Greater”.   On March 16, 2013 I began writing what I heard in my head and knew that what I wrote was my responsibility to share with others. The voice was strong in my mind and it gave me knowledge that I could not have acquired by myself.  It wakes me up in the middle of the night with the urgency to write with no consistency to when this will happen or for how long I will write.   My writing changes as my awareness grows.  “I”, “We” and “You” are all used interchangeably.  There are times in my writing that I cannot do anything but write and when I go back to read it “you” is written regardless of my attempts to keep this information just about me.  There are times that the voice inside my head becomes so strong, my words are written from the “I” perspective when the information is from Something Greater than myself.

 The knowledge I have been given has changed me forever as my words have led me to a greater understanding about life.  I have the ability to combine the physical world and the spiritual world and there is perfect order in this process.  The key to it all is within each of us as we have the ability to bring heaven into our everyday world. 

 As I write, I read the words over and over and know that Something Greater is at work in my life.  I now see that there is no secret to this knowledge, we just forgot and now our fears block us from the truth. I am now like the hungry bear waking up from a winter sleep.  I share my story that I receive from Something Greater.  The source of this knowledge is within me and cannot be found in the world.  My thoughts and emotions are the key to this process.  If my thoughts are full of negativity, I will not understand.  If my emotions are full of fear, I cannot understand.  If I take the two and balance them for my foundation, I will grow with the knowledge that my emotions bring Something Greater into me and change my thoughts for my spiritual awakening. Through this process,  I discovered that my emotions are my link to Something Greater and if I listen, I will see the changes all around me as I prepare for the reality of what I am inside. 

 My message is one that many throughout history have shared.  I only elaborate on how I reached this level of understanding for myself.  I had to go through many emotions to find my heaven on earth and each emotion brings me one step closer to this awakening.  I now understand what the battle between the darkness and the light is all about.  It is within me.  My fears block me from the truth and with each barrier I break through, more understanding emerges.  I reflect Something Greater in human form.  Freewill is given for my uniqueness to express my interpretation of Something Greater in a way that only I can do with these choices. 

 Even though my experiences may be different than yours, the end result is the same.  I am in the mind of Something Greater in physical form.  With each passing day, as I seek for more knowledge in this process, I see the world around me changing into an exciting place, full of wonder and awe. The homeless man on the street corner now represents a part of me.  The people in my life that causes me stress and difficulty now force me to look at what part of myself needs to change.  The rain now symbolizes a reflection of my emotions.  I see myself in all around me.  The times I thought I was helping someone else has turned into the realization that I really helped myself.  The relationships that caused me so much pain has turned into the understanding that I was really working through the fears within myself.  I came to the realization that all I went through in my life was necessary for my understanding to reach the next level of my consciousness.  Everything around me holds new meaning now.  Even the dragonfly that appears is now symbolic of the transformation I am going through as a result.  My belief of the perfection of this process brings me messages in everything around me.  Speaking my truth brings my thoughts and emotions into my reality.  As I seek every day for more understanding, more is revealed to me.

This is my journey into the other worlds through desperation and hope that there is Something Greater out there.  I see changes in my understanding of what the darkness and the light is inside of all of us.  The evil is the fear that turns into the ability to intentionally take away another person’s ability to grow.  To repress another person’s progress is the greatest of all sins and the fear turns into a cesspool of misery for all those involved.

I have learned that the world around me responds to my thoughts and feelings and will travel through space and time in attempts to create whatever I think and feel.  The times I question why things are happening to me and think someone else has done something harmful to me, I find lessons in these experiences with a greater understanding as to why things occurred the way they did for me.  I have learned that sometimes things were taken from me so I could replace them with a new found understanding for who I am becoming.  My reflections of the things that have occurred have turned into a sadness of what I was and what I am no longer and at the same time, I find a new appreciation for what I am becoming. 

Without the darkness, I could not see the light.  I had to reach up from this darkness of despair to find that the light of happiness was always there.  I struggle on a daily basis to understand this new level of awareness.  I am accepting that I will not be able to comprehend the greatness of the source that lies within me.  It is difficult at times for me to understand why this knowledge was given to a scared and miserable person such as myself.  What I have inside my thoughts and emotions bursts from my pores to share with others.  I catch myself thinking of what others will say about what I write and I remind myself that I cannot carry who they are inside and they have their own journey to walk.

My disagreements with others are turning into the truth of who I am and the freedom of this knowledge brings me to a new understanding about myself.  I am humbled through this process with gratitude that brings me a strength from what lies inside.  I see the pain that others experience as their journey with the ability to give them a new understanding through my words.  I find that as I speak the truth to others, the words activate something inside of them to find what they seek as well.  I now know that it is in all of us and it is my responsibility to give pieces of my strength to those who will listen.  I have been given a gift that I must share.  I am opening the blinds to my eyes with caution so that it does not overwhelm me with the light as I share what has been given to me.

You Are Not Replaceable

Just as your Creator took the word to create, we take our words to create. The more we bring our consciousness out into the space in front of us, the more we can create. We all go back to ONE and as we move forward out into the darkness of our thoughts, we play out the words spoken. The words spoken that go all the way back to our creation bring forth the beginning words, “Let there be light”. As we take that light out into the darkness of our thoughts and create, we form into the matter of those thoughts that become words. We will one day speak the words that bring all we believe out into the view in front of us. Just as the masters foretold of their coming and all the written documents revealed, we will form the words into our reality. The masses believe in the prophesies written in Revelation and this energy source becomes stronger as it forms the planet into that which was spoken.

The clay you are made from also makes the earth, you are in this crystal ball to form further into the darkness. As you obtain more knowledge, more of the Source of All Knowledge flows through you. As you become more connected to this Source, the faster the matter will change in front of you. The phrase, “seek and ye shall find” will echo in your thoughts and you will reach for more understanding of how this works in your everyday life. As you balance the need to find more of this source of power, the realization will come that as you sit inside your thoughts, you are creating with each breath you take. The mission then becomes the daily task of bringing the spirit out into the space in front of you.

The world is now your playground with rules that will hold consequences when not followed. If you continue thinking the same thoughts over and over, you will inevitably get the same results. If you change the thoughts, the space in front of you changes as well. As you learn the rules, you will try to live within those confinements as you learn what your Creator expects from you. As you awaken, you will look out into the edges of the light that the Source of All Knowledge shines and you will see the darkness of uncertainty. It will be a challenge to form this darkness into the confinements that the rules of the universal laws hold. With each new generation this planet seeks to form the ONE consciousness for peace and harmony.

This planet is at a crossroads in attempts to evolve spiritually. You should remember that the darkness is conscious and strives to destroy any of the light you hold. If you take this darkness and shine the light of love into this source, only truth will be seen. If the darkness reflects fear when love shines, you must acknowledge such emotions to see what your fears mean to you. As you learn the universal laws that you will receive what you give to others and you have a purpose in all this chaos, you will seek for a way to balance the fear with the attempt to find love. On your search to enlightenment, you take what beliefs you can hold as you own and leave the fear at your feet. Some days you may feel as though you are walking in quicksand but as you pray for light, love and healing, you will remind yourself that you are right where you are supposed to be as you hold on the faith of what God promises.

All religions hold the belief in a source that created humans. All religions acknowledge that there is Something Greater unless they are atheists or agnostic. During the dying process even those who don’t believe in Something Greater question if they could be wrong. There are who do not believe in reincarnation. Each religion believes that their way is the way to find the Source of All Creation. As we grow in our conscious state of existence, we will find that regardless of our beliefs, we can agree of the possibilities with the faith in Something Greater. Each should find their own truth of what Something Greater means to them. The light of the way to enlightenment comes through love only.

Fear only traps you and will confide you until you suffocate with the inability to learn why you are here. Even if you think this is your one chance to “get it right”, if you live in the fear of what is right, you are limiting your knowledge by allowing what you believe to sit inside and turn into the darkness of your thoughts. How can you know if what you believe is right unless you explore these beliefs to find that is right for you?

Through the guidance for the masters, you will find the rules that God had place on humans as you seek for enlightenment. You can be guided by the inner voice to know what is right for you. The times you hold doubts, look towards the teachings that the masters gave during their time on this planet. As the masses separate into the darkness and the light, know you are the vessel for this time. What you think will be your strength or your destruction forever more. Even on the days you feel like a hamster running on a wheel to nowhere, if you remind yourself that you are right where you are supposed to be, you will receive the knowledge that this moment is a gift. You can look inside the space that surrounds you and you can know that your mind, body and spirit is not replaceable and your presence is needed during this moment.

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Spirit of Sickness

Chapter 50

**The Flow of Change for the Soul 

Emotions bring forth specific reactions in your body. If you are anxious, your stomach may feel like it is doing flip flops as your anxiety goes back and forth from your thoughts to your feelings. In your quest for spiritual growth, there will come a level of awareness when you will begin to recognize the type of spirit that enters your space by how you feel and by what you think. Certain spirits will bring forth certain reactions in your body as it enters your thoughts and emotions. When you become aware that such experiences do occur, you will begin to identify the spirit of sickness that can consume your body. The knowledge that you are made in the image of your creator who is perfection will strengthen you when the spirit of sickness attempts to invade your body.

There will come a day when you will be able to identify the spirits that enter your space. You will take the knowledge you have been given from Something Greater and will use it to continue the form of perfection that your creator made you into. You will be able to recognize the spirit by how your body reacts and as you gain control over your thoughts and emotions, you will heal any sickness that enters your body.

Your body is the product of your thoughts and emotions and sickness can only emerge when you allow this spirit to enter. As you grow spiritually, you will understand that all sickness was planned prior to your arrival into this dimension. There are many reasons why people become sick.

The spirit is forming your thoughts and emotions into your physical form. If you are full of stressful thoughts, your body will form into these thoughts through sickness. For those that are born with sickness there are experiences that all impacted by the sickness will have for spiritual growth.

If you have the spirit of sickness you are at a crossroads within your thoughts as you read these words. How do you take control of your thoughts that will result in taking control of the spirits that surround you at any given time? It is a process that will take great discipline on your behalf. Acceptance that you have this sickness for spiritual growth will be difficult, especially if you have a sickness that makes you think you are dying. You will not be able to see the greater good in such a situation. You will be fearful of death and what this sickness is doing to your body. The fear will consume you at times and acceptance of where you are within your thoughts will be difficult to surrender to because of the fear.

The spirit of sickness will be present to tell you that you need to accept the life you have and that you are right where you are supposed to be. If it is a terminal diagnosis, you will be forced to seek for answers as to what your life means to you as a result. If you do not believe in a higher power, you will be forced to question the existence of one. As you go back and forth in your mind of what is true for your existence, you will make a choice during the sickness of if you just give this body up and move into nothing as you do not seek for a higher power or you look out into your thoughts for a way to make yourself feel better about your presence in this body that is now filled with sickness.

If you choose to identify with the spirit of sickness and totally accept this moment, the healing can begin as you find the love for all that you are today. Releasing the fear of all your past and what opened you up to the spirit of sickness will bring you to the awareness of why you subconsciously allowed it to enter into your body. You may feel as though you are a victim and there is nothing you can do with the sickness. As in any relationship that you do not want, you may become angry, you may experience denial that it even exists, you may pretend to be a friend and go about your day as if nothing has changed for you. The day you can identify why you have allowed the spirit of sickness into your life, you will understand why it came to you. This stage of development is beyond any words as you will embrace what the God of your understanding has given you and the desperation for spiritual growth will then be viewed as the gift that it was meant to be all along.

The spirit of sickness will then be viewed like the parent trying to teach the child how to become independent in their growth from a child to adulthood. If you think you will die from the spirit of sickness, you will then embrace the moment for your spiritual growth as you leave this body and become an example for all those who are impacted by the dying process.

Do you spend the time you have in this body full of anger and misery as a victim of what you are going through or do you accept that this is the life you have whether you believe in Something Greater or not? There will come a day when you will understand that the spirit of sickness is needed to help guide you on your path toward the God of your understanding and you will embrace the pain like the mother who embraces the rebellious child who has caused so much anguish because he or she did not know any better at the time.

You were made in the image of your creator and each experience you have while in this body brings you to another level of awareness for the perfection that you were made into. The sickness will then be viewed as an illusion for what is really happening on your pathway back to perfection with the God of your understanding. You are responsible for what you do with your thoughts as you allow your creator to create through you. Even the spirit of sickness can turn into your friend if you see the greater good of what you are learning.

There are spirits who only want destruction of this dimension and you have to get control of your thoughts to ensure that they do not consume you. How strong your connection is with your creator will determine the abilities these spirits will have within your thoughts. The more time you spend with a specific thought, the more energy a specific spirit will have to create or to destroy with you. The spirit of sickness can be viewed as an opportunity to go to your next level of awareness if you so choose. The answers will come if you seek within yourself. You will find the clues within all your affairs. That will be the day the spirit of sickness will turn into the spirit of love because of your belief in a world that cannot be seen but can be heard inside your thoughts.

 

A Place of Peace

Chapter 25

*The Flow of Change for the Soul

It is time to take control of the thoughts you hold. It is time to understand what lies inside your mind. There is a battle in your thoughts and all that you believe. You try to take the moment to find some peace inside. No matter what you do, the peace seems so far away. Every time you find a thought that quiets the anguish that you hold, the part that says you are no good tortures the peace you find. The little voice that says you do not matter seeps into your mind. The force of anger and all it brings will make you fear the world.

You will question who you are and why you are here. As you look around the place right where you stand, the air will change inside you as you breathe it in. The world of anger will bring you to a place that makes you feel alone. It will make you want to hide and keep all your thoughts inside. If you look inside the world right inside your head, you will find a place of peace that will say hello. It will come to you every time you feel alone. It will make you see that your thoughts are true. It will change your thoughts and all that you believe. This place will call to you inside the thoughts that make you feel alone. This place will shine with gratitude that comes inside the air. The gratitude will seep inside and shine the love for you.

It will not be seen by anyone but you. The more alone you feel, the more you will hear. It will make you crazy as you try to figure it all out. You will want to say that it’s not there. It will cause a feeling of desperation as you try to hide. The day will come when you will not have anywhere to hide. The day will come when you will surrender because of who you are.

All the anger and anguish that you hold will sit inside the place that will bring you peace. The fear will swirl around inside. It will take the place of peace and turn it into a storm within your thoughts. All the rain will come to you and make you feel like you are drowning. You will stand inside your thoughts that make you feel alone. As you surrender to these thoughts the gratitude will come. The gratitude will cover you until the rain stops. It will bring the feeling of love that will then be seen. You will see that all you are is because of where you have been. With the feeling of acceptance right where you stand, the gratitude will take the place of anger that you hold. It will bring another thought that maybe you are here to find the place of peace because of where you have been. That will be the day you accept right where you stand. You would never have found this place of peace within your thoughts unless you felt all the anguish that brought you to this time. The place of peace will come to you when you are at your worst.

 

The Feeling of Urgency

**Please read this passage out loud three times and feel the spirit moving through the body as the mind comprehends the words.

Many life times brought you to where you sit at this moment. With each life you have lived, you bring more knowledge into the body. The planets are aligned to bring you the frequency to activate the knowing of all lives lived. As the walking library for the universe, you are opening corridors inside of you to rooms of knowledge that have not been used for many life times.

The information is inside of you waiting to become conscious. Everything you see, hear, touch, smell and taste brings more light inside the rooms of information you hold. The lights in the rooms are switching on quickly now. Some of you will want to switch the lights off as you attempt to align to this new awareness of who you really are. The anxiety may come in waves. Know the growing pains in the body will be brief.

The feeling of urgency may overwhelm you. Know that those who live in the light are here to support you as the body opens to this mission that you came here to complete. The universe waits with anticipation as you open these rooms full of information that hold the knowledge for all the universe. No one can do this for you.

You have accepted this mission for all the universe. As these rooms of information open inside of you, the outside view will become confusing. Those who do not want you to have access to this information will present many illusions to you. Those of the light family will send messages like these to you in attempts to deflect these illusions.

It will be your responsibility to feel your way through the illusions with discernment. The urgency is felt because the body you are in has limitations due to these illusions that have been building for many life times. Once you activate the knowing that you are the library to all knowledge, the body will become lighter. Your view of death will be one of the first illusions to overcome so you can relax during this transition. The feeling of urgency will subside for a time as you realign your mind and body with the spirit.

The spirit will begin to be viewed as the part of this process that holds the power to unlock the doors of information. The body will then surrender as the spirit permeates all corridors within the body with the keys to unlock each door to the rooms holding the information for knowledge.

Each room will open when the body and the mind are aligned properly with the spirit. Some rooms will need to be cleaned out due to the life times you have lived full of fear. You have stored the fears in these rooms mixed with the information and this causes confusion. Your fears need to be removed as you face each one, feel each one and then free each one.

Once these rooms are cleaned of all illusions, the clarity will come as you see the light shining brightly and as you awaken to your purpose while here. Now is the time, not tomorrow or next week. Feel the urgency of your mission guiding your every thought. Do not let those around you sway your thoughts. You are not going insane, you are feeling the urgency because the time is NOW. Be still and know you are not alone. Know you are held in the mind of Something Greater and you are protected and loved.

The spirit called holy surrounds you now and activates the knowing inside of you. The sound of your voice is heard as the feel of your heart wraps around the words. You are no longer asleep and feel the knowing that rises you above the gravity where the negative frequency holds you hostage.