The New Story Begins

Today the story is about me. I woke up in the moment of not thinking about the word cancer.  I thanked God for yet another day and remembered my up-coming surgery. As I searched my mind for answers to find peace in my then anxiety-ridden thoughts, I recalled that I am right where I am supposed to be. Acceptance of this thought gave me a calming-effect. I looked towards the sun to see the beginning of a new day. My belief in what I am doing in this body got me out of the bed so I could push forward to create a world of peace around me if only for the day.

The thought that I help others find peace through my experiences helped me forget my own inner struggles. I look for the world that is outside of my every day view to give me purpose as I see much suffering all around me. I look towards the creation of the moment and the magnitude of my presence. As I pondered on this thought, I began to feel a presence all around me that gave me strength to look for something more.

The day was filled with magic as I saw experience after experience that reflected my faith in a day that had a purpose. People brought me messages on my journey through the day and as I pushed aside the fear of this up-coming surgery, I created my heaven for the moment.

The extensions of the God of my understanding did not show up as a lightning bolt. The language of my God came to me through the dragon fly that flew in front of my windshield on my way to work. God came to me in the form of the baby that I saw in the elevator sleeping with not a care in the world. God came to me in the conversation with the stranger that complimented my hair.

Today I found myself in an area of the hospital that I never venture into at the oddest moment and met a woman that I had never seen before. She prayed with me and we both stated that we did not know why we were there at that particular time. I told her what the grace of God meant to me as she said that she was writing about grace in a paper. I don’t remember why she was writing about grace but I told her to read my story called “The Beginning” in my blog if she wanted a story about what the grace of God did for me. I went away from that experience thinking she was there for me yet wondered if I gave her something in return as well.

I was very aware today that all is made from the spirit into physical form and today I experienced it in people.

“You will see the spirit world that brings the rays of the sunshine.  It will start as a feeling and turn into a thought and the window of desperation will open to this world.  The moment will become a connection as you take the knowledge of who you are and blend it with the air.  You will one day grasp the understanding that the path to Something Greater is found in your conscious level of existence that you connect to in an unseen world.”  The Making of the Moment by Lisa Hynes

Update on the Book

I continue to write every day and I am in the process of making the changes for the gallery that holds the text for the body of the book. I planned on having all the changes completed by this past weekend. Unfortunately, I received news this past Friday that delayed my plans. I will be going through surgery on August 26th at 9:30am with the hopes that what is removed is not cancer "again".  This experience has brought me to a new place within my thoughts as to why I feel as though I am going in circles. It is nothing like when I had a double mastectomy but it brings back all those old feelings. Part of me is struggling with the whole thought of death and why I am faced with possible cancer yet again. All the anxiety that was finally gone after two years since my last scare slowly seeps into my thoughts. I go back and forth within my mind as I remind myself that I am experiencing all this for spiritual growth. Why do I have to experience such fear that my body may have to go through chemotherapy and radiation again? How do I keep the faith in Something Greater that I write about every day? I tell myself that I am faced with this experience because it is leading me to a greater connection in my relationship with the God of my understanding.

I have decided to write my thoughts down every day as I go through this procedure and how it affects me as a result. Today I have been sad. Yesterday felt like a dream. Saturday I worked and was so busy with preparing for school with my daughter that I didn’t have time to think about it. Friday, August 15, was when I was told that I needed to have two spots removed from the same area that I had the cancer back in 2010. The difference this time is that God is in my life and the hope and faith of what is promised as long as I allow God to take over my decisions brings me a purpose in all this mess. I am taking only the day this time and not worrying about “what if”. I am not shutting the door on the past nor having any regrets. I am reminding myself that I am right where I am supposed to be. Acceptance brings me to a peace inside as I fight with the anxiety of the terrible word called “Cancer”.

This time I can talk about what I am thinking and I am reaching out to others. I am asking for help instead of sitting in the darkness of my thoughts. So here I sit needing to rest for tomorrow that will be filled with patients who are faced with death and dying and I think about death and what it means to me. Tomorrow will come and I will be different yet the surgery date will be there in the back of my mind. I will get up and pray and dedicate a part of my morning to write for Something Greater and I will go through another day with the intentions to help others in any way that I can. I will seek for answers within every waking moment and the stranger that smiles as passing by me may be the one sign that I will need to get through that moment.

Today I start a different story about me and my journey through yet another experience with cancer. I will let you know tomorrow night what I was blessed with learning as I go through my day with this new information that is also old in my life.

 “The first of fear will then be gone and the first will then be the last.  The love will be the last of all the fear you had at first.” The Box by Lisa Hynes

Web Site is up!! Thank you Nick Pellegrini

I have to thank the most special person who made this site possible:

Nick Pellegrini

She took my ideas and made them real and now all my dreams are coming true.  Go to:

InTheMindOfSomethingGreater.com

Check it out. I will be having the book printed as soon as I look through the gallery one last time with minor changes.

The Old with the New

To take a past that is full of pain and turn it into the love for who you are at this moment takes several steps that will need to be reviewed every day. The first is to surrender to a force that cannot be explained. Acceptance of this power that is greater than you will require redirecting your thoughts and what you believe is real. To understand that things are not really what you see is, at first, difficult to comprehend. How do you accept that your past anguish was not in vain? How do you accept that all this was a way to reach the understanding that there is Something Greater? The beliefs you hold are your reality and you can choose to dwell on your past and continue to make it who you are today or you can take the humility from where you came from and turn it into the hope of what can come from your past and make it something new.

The day the old way of thinking blends in with the belief that there is Something Greater, the new thoughts will emerge. You will find that you can take the past events that caused such anguish and turn them into the belief that they brought you to this level of awareness and you are forever changed. Your knowledge will expand as you seek for more and Something Greater will emerge into your reality as you turn the thoughts of who you were into the new thoughts. As the sun rises you will see how the new day brings you the opportunity for a new you and as the moon rises, the new cycle will begin.

You then will have a belief in Something Greater and that alone will change who you are because you were who you were and now you know something different. The belief takes the old and turns it into a meaning that you would not have found any other way. That feeling you get with this realization will blend the old thoughts with the new feelings and together they will bring a new spirit into your mind and body. The love will become so strong inside that you will feel it coming out into others without doing a thing. You will then know that you are different, yet look the same.

As you change from the inside-out, your physical appearance will begin to change as well. You will present yourself to others with the knowledge that you are the vessel for this unseen world and you will want to look your best at every moment. As you consciously strive to improve yourself, those around you will notice something different about you. They will not be able to articulate what is different, other than how happy you seem.

You will begin to seek ways to help others who still sit in the corner of their minds full of fear. You will want to show them how they don’t have to suffer with their thoughts any longer. You will then become an example to others as you take the old ways of thinking and blend them with the new feelings you hold that change you from the inside-out. The feelings will wash away all your anguish and bring you happiness for what you have found in your desperation.

The old thoughts will then become the foundation for the new thoughts and together they will stand strong for the new you. It will all start with the feeling you will get on the day you realize there is Something Greater and you are right where you are supposed to be in this bigger plan.

What could this bigger plan be that brought you to such desperation? This gift is only given to the chosen. Those whom Something Greater has chosen to travel a path of creation will be shown glimpse of this unseen world. Some never experience this unseen world and go through life to never venture out into the magnitude of what lies within our view. The gift of desperation forces us to break through fear to find Something Greater. The only way to understand what it all means to you is to look inside the part of you that yearns for something more.

We are here because we are chosen and those who think this existence is a random occurrence have not reached the level of awareness to know the difference. The knowledge will come to all and all are right where they are supposed to be. All the pain and anguish is necessary to reach the awareness that you do not have to suffer so you can understand the difference. This existence is the way to a greater understanding of your part in the universe. Your presence is needed and there will come a day when you will understand the magnitude of who you are and who you are becoming.

As you look at who you are at this moment, the beauty can shine through for you or you can choose to sit in the darkness of your mind until your time in this body is finished. Your fears create your misery and your love will make you new. The old thoughts will then fuse together with the new thoughts and you will not remember where one starts and the other ends.

The Marathon

When you realize that were you stand collides with who you were, you will have two choices. Do you live in the thought of what could have been or do you look towards what can be? Knowing the past has already spoken and brings you to what you are today is two-fold. Would you still want to be who you are if you would have known this is where you would be, by making the decisions that brought you here today?

 

From the beginning you were searching for the pathway back to Something Greater. Your creations lead you here, right where you stand. If you would have taken a different path, you would not be who you are today. When you go back to the beginning of who you remember in your life, you will find the part of you that was always there. You will find the part of you that had pure intentions that got all confused along the way.

 

When you go back to those pure intentions, you will find the part of you that burns inside for the love of those intentions. As you tried to protect your love, you set boundaries for experiences that hurt you along the way. With each new boundary you placed on another, you complicated your intentions. As you search for meaning in this thing called life, and find that there is Something Greater at work, you will question what that means to you. As you put more faith into what the God of your understanding stands for in your life, you will look at all the relationships throughout your life that made you who you are today.

 

For those relationships that cannot be repaired because there are no more boundaries for the expectations you held on those relationships, you must take what you have learned for something new.

 

It will feel like the end of running a marathon. A tiredness will be there as you look to the finish line and see another race beginning. Do you stop to rest or do you keep on running?