Loneliness

 Loneliness

There is an ache inside when one comes to the realization that they are ultimately left with the self. When the core of who I am feels that ache, it is a reminder that is time to pay attention to myself. No one else can feel this way,  but me. I am only left with me. It becomes a time of reflection with everything that brought me to this place. As I try to find the words to describe that feeling, it is like a dark hallway when I can hear my footsteps and I can’t see anything around me. It is a time when I feel like I could crawl out of my skin. Where does it come from? It is a signal for me to see how far I’ve come. A time for me to appreciate all I’ve learned in this place that brings me here to write this. It becomes a compassion for the self. It turns into a time of empowerment to find my voice and to know what I want. I don’t wake up one day and say oh there is, that feeling of self love.  Each step on this journey gives me more wisdom and more discernment for who I am and what I’m doing here. The loneliness is something I turn inward with. Something to connect with, to grow with. I turn it into a purpose. Because I know, I am responsible, so I share what I’ve learned on a daily basis in hopes to touch one more heart that may need it. With those efforts, all the other stuff turns into the way, to find the goodness for all I am and who I’m becoming.